i used to think investing was supposed to be exciting. i had the apps. the little red and green numbers. i'd check before coffee, check at lunch, check in bed. a green day felt like winning. a red day felt personal. i told myself i was "engaged with my finances." really i was just gambling with extra paperwork. the wake-up call wasn't a big loss. it was a tuesday. i caught myself refreshing a chart for the fourth time before 9am, heart going a little fast, over a swing that